Already?

So, here we go again. Didn't we just do this New Year thing a few weeks ago? Sure does seem like it.
Well, lets see, what's new? On the surface not a whole lot really, however, inside and behind the visible scenes there is a lot. For sometime now, and not as any form of boast, I have sustained the longest period of feeling a sense of wholeness in me. There's been no shortage of tests this past year and at some point about 5 months ago it dawned on me that all the things that use to just drag me into the black holes were not doing so. The usual list of hopes and dreams that didn't pan out were suddenly not destroying me. Rejections, criticisms and attempts at dragging me back through the mire of my past weren't working on me as they once did. Life is rolling off my back now in a healthy way and I have to say I like it.
No, things aren't as I would hope fro completely, but the thing is now is that's OK. I finally after 5 plus years of doing battle in my mind have come to grips that all I can do is be all that I am and if that isn't enough, then it's just that simple. I still can't make life be what I want or people to behave in ways I want, and that too is as it should be.
Someone posted on Facebook, "What is your dream for your life in 2012?"
I don't have a good answer for that. I suppose it would simply be, whatever Gods dream is for me in 2012. I heard Beth Moore say once that if what I want is simply whatever God wants, then I always get what I want. Good theory. So, I can safely say that as well. I have no clue what that might be, but I want it.
Anyway, that's about it. Going into the new year with high expectations but absolutely no detailed ones. Bring it on!